Knowing Your Self Worth

It’s been a while folks, so I do apologise. Even though I’ve been feeling really good lately (actually, really really good)- I must admit there’s been a lot going on in my personal life, as well as finishing my degree (everything to be handed in, in 14 days!) so I haven’t had time to blog.
However, there have been events that have been swirling around me that have been varying in the negative to the extremely positive. It made me realise how much power you can give to others to make you happy.

You really and truly have to ask yourself if the people around you are making you happy. Do they care for you as you care for them? Do they put out what you give in to a relationship? Is it a balance, or is it weighing you down? Do you make yourself happy?

The hardest part is admitting it. The next hardest part is doing something about it.

Situations and events that seem to be confrontational or hard to have, have the power to make you ‘lose your shit’. You say things you don’t mean, you shout and get angry and find it hard to respond in a conversational way.
For me, I’ve never been one to lose it completely, in fact I’m very much a calm and understanding person. Which to some, may seem quite frustrating! But not everyone is like that. Some people do not know how to express themselves in a way that does not hurt the other. Even if the topic is hard to discuss, there’s so much emotion behind it- that you practically word vomit (and nobody wants that right?)

Step back from the conversation, take a few deep breaths and then talk.

If you’re not with people who push you and support you through whatever you set your mind to, they are not worth your time. You have to know your self worth to understand completely what the friendship or relationship means to you. You don’t have to end something completely if you do not want to, you can take a break, tell them how you feel and see how they respond. If you feel it needs to end, then that’s ok too. Also, the most important part, is that you don’t have to say things in a mean way. Being confrontational does not mean you have to be aggressive about it. Hard talks are at the end of the day, the honest ones.

Some people have all different paths to take, and some people grow at different rates. Paths may cross, and some will grow together. Be accepting of someone else’s path, and let them go on their own journey. Do not be afraid of knowing what you are worth and the change that can happen with it. Do not be afraid of the emotions that go along with change too. Let yourself feel. Whether it’s happiness, sadness, guilt, love etc. Sit with it, notice and see what is happening for what it really is.

Being accepting is a hard thing to do, but something that resonated with me is that ‘Hurt people, hurt people’. Be as compassionate as you can, even in the toughest of times.

Love yourself, and accept yourself before you love and accept other people.

Sending all positive vibes to my followers ❤

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Chelsea Art Exhibition, Brixton and the Nigerian Traveller

Oh yeah, you read right.

Friday afternoon I travelled down to London to attend the Art Exhibition down in Chelsea. I got an oh-so-fancy special guest invitation, and couldn’t pass up the opportunity. Originally, I was asked if I wanted to show my work down at the Exhibition- however the prices to rent the space for the few days was too expensive at the time. Plus the boyfriend and I had tickets to see Fightstar with Mooseblood on the Friday evening in Brixton.

On my way down, I sat next to a man who I had an solid two hour conversation with- and after two hours I never got his name. I seem to have the ability to make friends with strangers travelling quite often, but his story was a lovely one.

He told me he had travelled to the UK on business from Nigeria. The last time he had travelled over here was in Aberdeen, Scotland. We spoke in deep discussion about work and marriage. The customs over there in Nigeria are different towards marriage. His wedding ceremony last over two days and he had over a thousand guests. 1,000. holy moly! From what we spoke about, a wedding isn’t just about the church and an afterparty- invitations are not even considered important. The whole of his village will turn up, then they will tell their friends and so on and so on. Plus his wife’s village will turn up, and tell all their friends too. He told me how he had to feed all of the people that attended. Imagine the cooking pot!!

We also spoke about work- as I said I worked two part-time jobs, as well studying and running my own business. In Nigeria, unemployment is severely high. This lovely chap told me he worked over 12 hours a day, 5 days a week- and sometimes on weekends. He loved the fact he could travel, but he missed his family. He said he was lucky to even have a job, so working so much was a given. I loved how he spoke of his family and what his view of the British were ‘You are so polite! Yet you are so reserved!’ 

I gave him directions out of Kings Cross Station to a hotel and he went on his way. No matter where you’re going- just be kind. I could have just sat next to this man for over 2 hours ignoring his story and his existence. This nice chap was thousands of miles away from his family having never been to London before. He worked hard, he stayed positive and did everything to provide for his wife and child. This guy was a pleasure to talk to- so where ever you are man- I wish you all the best!

That night, we travelled to Brixton to see the almighty Fightstar perform at the o2 Academy. I bought the tickets ages ago as Josh’s christmas present. Just incredible, I can’t believe how amazing they were. Plus, I’ve always wanted to see Mooseblood- so wizard!! Had an amazing time at the gig (even though one pint was a fiver, and for a Yorkshire girl- parting with that dolla’ was insane).

In the morning we suited and booted for the Art Exhibition. We’ve never been to Chelsea before, but it’s a beautiful place. 04As we went in, we got free red wine and walking around the different pieces. There were three Artists I absolutely loved who are Michela Antonello, Hepzibah McLeod and Elena AbessinovaIncredible work, and noticed how Hepzibah McLeod’s work specfically is quite similiar to my own work. It was a lovely afternoon in Chelsea and I really urge you to check out their work!

It has been a wonderful weekend, with last night I attended a Charity Quiz at the Picture House for PAPYRUS– prevention of young suicide. Although my journey from London to Yorkshire prevented me from taking part in the actual quiz, I donated and spent a great time with my friends there! Well done Shaun for putting on a fantastic event!

I hope everyone else enjoyed their weekend and your monday is not too dreary.

Much love,

kimmykeepreal x