My Lil’ Surgery- What Went Down!

Hey y’all. It’s been a while since I’ve written anything concerning wellbeing- although I have been guest blogging for the non-profit Trusted Clothes about my passion for sustainability and my business yet to launch. I guess I’m gonna write a little differently for a bit concerning wellbeing with what’s been going down lately. (Apologies if this is too much info surgery wise, but letting you know it’s a lil grim.)

I had surgery which I’ve been recovering from. I’ve had an injury for agggessss that needed an operation, and it was about time I went ahead and bit the bullet. When I was training at my Gymnastics Squad in Sheffield, I had torn the muscle wall in my abdomen (gross right?) from doing a routine exercise. I didn’t see it coming, I was training twice a week and when it happened it was the worst pain I’ve ever felt.  It lead to having a ‘ventral hernia’. It stopped me from doing my best and being a Senior at my Squad. It sucked, and I eventually packed it in.  As I’ve grown up and my stomach muscles being as they are from training, it hasn’t been a problem…until now. I’ve grown up since, and the muscle wall tear has grown slightly. When I eat, drink, exercise or even laugh a lot- it has been very painful. And I do a lot of all of those things!

So, I now have a nice neat scar above my belly button, they’ve stitched me up and repaired it with a mesh. So I guess you could say I’m now more solid than I’ve ever been, haha!Screen Shot 2016-03-04 at 16.24.05

The reason why it is taking me a while to recover (which is super frustrating) is that it actually takes 6 -8 weeks to make a complete recovery. I thought I’d be in and out, swaggering around Yorkshire like my usual self! But sadly, no. Internal stitches and placing a mesh inside to repair the damaged wall takes a while to get good. I just have to take it easy if I’m going places.
It didn’t help that during surgery, they gave me 100ml of Tremadol, and then after surgery gave me 50ml more; which it turns out I’m allergic to. I came round from surgery covered in a rash all over my body, making me feel nauseous and completely not with it. I had to stay overnight, as they had to keep an eye on me from the reaction to the medication. I also had trouble going to the toilet because my stomach hurt so bad- so they were slightly concerned about that too.

As I was in a private room, I had a buzzer if I needed help. As my problems were mostly going-to-the-loo-related, they told me to buzz if I needed help with it. After I’d tried by myself, I tried to sit down in a chair but then starting feeling awful. I’d slumped down in this chair, cold sweats, probably looked deathly and ended up passing out. All the while I tried buzzing for help, but they presumed I just need the loo. So they didn’t come. I heard a nurses voice on the intercom asking if I needed help- but to reply I needed to be on the other side of the room. Eventually after many buzzes I must have made a nurse came in, and found me collapsed in the chair. Oxygen mask on and everything!

So my experience of hospital was great and crappy at the same time. My dad had major surgery in a different hospital the same day as mine- so with all of what was going on with me, I was concerned about my Dad too. I was talking about him to all the nurses and Doctors, and to be honest I just wanted to get better so I could see him.

I’m feeling much better lately, although still finding it different to concentrate because it makes me feel sick and I have to nap it off. Other than that, it’s looking good but I just have to take it easy. My Dad is doing alright too, and his surgery went as well as they hoped.

Road to recovery now! ❤ ❤ ❤

A Reflection on Being Butt-hurt.

Hey folks! I hope you’re having a wonderful weekend so far!

As a lil’ lady who is continuously learning about herself, it’s extremely hard to discuss topics that I’m still, well, learning about! It’s soul- baring, and I feel all vulnerable discussing it. I’d like to think I’m self aware, or at least know my own strengths and weaknesses in every day terms, but in a perspective concerning relationships- it’s still something that is developing all the time.

I pride myself on my independence, and being comfortable in my own skin. Which is very true indeed! As some of you know, I was a bundle of nerves and my anxiety was at it’s highest in college years. In other articles/posts, I have stated that it affected my Screen Shot 2016-04-17 at 14.56.11relationships, which it definitely did. I look back at that time now, and think how much of a different person I am now. I’m unashamed of my easy going attitude towards everything, I’m confident and chilled out in a mushy-cool combination (or at least I’d like to think so!), I go with the flow- if a guy comes along that I really like, sweet! If not, that’s cool too- because what will happen, will happen ❤ However it has been a slight downfall in relationships where my kindness/ easy going attitude has been taken for granted, or really taken advantage of. And that’s my reflection. It aint cool. It’s not 100% ‘rejection’, its someone manipulating the good within you for selfish reasons. I was butt hurt, and it succkkkkeedd. It hurt my lil’ soul.

Everyone has a fear of rejection/ feelings not returned, but it’s how you deal with it that determines the overall outcome. Learn from it, grow- but also let yourself feel! This has been on my mind from the experience. When someone betrays your trust, or plays on your personality, it flippin sucks. It sucks big time, no matter the circumstance. It’s alright to rationalise an experience by saying ‘some people are not meant to be in your life’ and ‘hurt people, hurt people’ (which are all very true sayings), you have to let yourself feel hurt. This, in my very personal experience, is something I’ve been working on. It feels uncomfortable and has a weird feeling in your stomach, but it’s so important to experience it (Psychologies has a great article about coming back from rejection here). It’s left me a little guarded as a person lately, but I’m taking it within my stride. We’re not all perfect people, it’s taken me a while to admit this butt-hurt. I’m still rolling with the punches and slaying my way through each week the best I can!

Remember, you’re growing as a human being every day. Every day. Sometimes, things don’t go the way you planned, and you have to be very mindful of your actions and reactions. Be gentle, be kind, be yourself. As much as being butt-hurt sucks, don’t react with anger or hate. Take a step back and remember your self worth, and treat the situation with as much goodness as you can. But also stand up for yourself too! ❤ You will come out of a bad experience with more perspective, ready to go with the flow of the world that awaits!

Anyway sweetpeas, I will leave it there ❤ sending all my love to you all!

 

 

 

 

 

Confession

Hey folks, apologies for a break in writing. In all honesty, it’s been difficult for me to write some new content as I haven’t been feeling so great at all lately. Firstly, I’ve had to accept that despite some wonderful things happening with my business Keep Real, I’ve been feeling quite upset about things. I can’t really tell you why, as some of the time I don’t know myself, and perhaps this is just something I’m going through. I’m feeling quite overwhelmed, and also losing joy recently in the little things I love. I’m finding it hard to feel happy most of the time and lately losing my ability to see the good in everything. I’ve found it hard to admit it to myself more than anything, so here I am starting with that. It’s probably because I’ve always prided myself on my ability to see the positives and the brightness through every event of my life, and the life of you lovely readers and all the wonderful souls I have the pleasure of calling my friends. But I have to say, I’ve been finding things hard. I just wanted to say that.

I also wanted to write this little bit, to make folk realise that it’s ok to have bad days or bad weeks, even bad months. I know in myself that I promote the positives, and 90% of the time I am extremely mindful of all that I do, even the bad. But withholding what I’m going through wouldn’t be true to the blog, it wouldn’t be true to what mental health and wellness truly is. I’m not happy one hundred per cent of the time, but this is something I felt I needed to share.

I’m doing ok, and I will be back with sweet posts soon ❤

What Am I Up To? (A lot I guess!)

Hey folks, and Happy Women’s Day!!!  Thought I would do a personal update; as there’s quite a bit going on recently!

Firstly, I’m mega proud to say that my business Keep Real‘s ‘proof of concept’ application was approved, so the business is now in the process of doing more research before hopefully launching in July of this year. So excited, and so much to be doing! Plenty of lovely souls have approached me to get involved- so it’s brilliant to have a bit of a team behind Keep Real (Want to know more about us? Click here) who share the same passions and values. Truly humbled, and I cannot wait to see where KR goes. If you’d like to get involved in anyway, feel free to email me at kimmykeepreal@gmail.com! ❤

Also, as I still work part time at Boots (a job I had while at University, and has continued since I graduated!), as well as still being in the works of volunteering with the Charlie Waller Memorial Trust – I’ve been looking for work in mental health, or support work that gives me the opportunity to work with folk creatively. I can happily say that I’m into the second round of interviews at MENCAP, so finger crossed! Within the period of not being in full time employment since graduating, I’ve pretty much dedicated my time to working with non-profits and working on my business. I will hopefully be blogging for the non-profit ‘Trusted Clothes‘ who are based in Canada, and sharing the aims of my businesses sustainability and ethical sourcing of our clothes. The Slow Fashion Movement is something I really believe in, and Keep Real aims to be part of that. Inspiring wellness in all part of our lives, especially in the mind is so important ❤

So yeah, that’s what’s happening with me at the moment!

Hope you are all well, and as always – keep real! ❤

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Who’s that girl? An Introduction to kimmykeepreal

Hey sweet and wonderful folk! I hope you’re enjoying the week so far, and keeping all wrapped up for the cold weather!

Who’s that girl, huh? Looking at the most viewed posts here on kimmykeepreal.com, quite a lot of you want to know more about me personally, and about my business Keep Real (which is so flippin lovely to see you interested!). I discuss a heck of a lot concerning mental wellness, but never realllyyy about the brain/blonde behind the scenes.

So the first question really is…who is kimmykeepreal? What the heck does she do? I’ll try and tell you… If I can.

Well, firstly I’m a counselling therapy graduate currently starting my own small business ‘Keep Real’ based in Yorkshire, England. Keep Real is an upcoming clothing and goods brand dedicated12445973_944267862289161_907345107_n to creating sweet threads and accessories to inspire wellness, make people feel real good inside and out with a ‘keepin’ it real’ ethos. It’s quite a large part of my life, and I’m determined to make it into the movement it deserves to be! Also, I’m a freelance artist/illustrator. Although I design for my business, I design or collaborate with other businesses and creatives too. With all the arty farty rad things going on- I’m also an activist for mental health. I’m currently writing up a presentation to give to the Charlie Waller Memorial Trust discussing the impact of depression in young people. My public speaking game has gotta be strong!

 

I’m a sucker wpid-img_20150923_165211.jpgfor collecting records, hardbacks and Wonder Woman comics. My choice of music can be a little obscure compared to other tastes; so bands like Turnover, Brand New, Basement and Seahaven. You’ll find most of the bands I listen to are on labels such as Run For Cover, Deathwish and TopShelf Records. Back in the teenage years, I was a huuuggeee Paramore fan and continue to support them (I hear they’re working on a new record as we speak- so rad!). Can’t deny that Bieber is dropping some serious beats lately, so you may catch me listening to him or The Weeknd. Depends on my mood. I want to thank working in a music and film store for 3 years for my wild and wonderful tastes in music!

I have a habit for writing…a lot. I think I have about 5 notebooks on the go, one for scribbling, one for ideas, one as a diary, and a couple for business notes. It helps me process what’s going in my head. Sometimes I feel a little lost if I don’t write down how I feel, or don’t write about my week. When I struggled with anxiety a couple of years ago now, writing was extremely cathartic. When I was over-thinking, or my head was in a strange mess, writing was quite the saviour. There’s something about seeing your thoughts written down in your own hand. You can make more sense of it, and how you truly feel. Or maybe I just write a lot. It’s a system that works, and that’s just fine with me!

You’ll also note that my Instagram is mostly filled with outfit choices, things that interest/inspire me, my artwork and other sweet little gems I come across. The odd selfie or two, but I tend not to post many at all!

I hope this little snippet feeds your need to know a lil’ more. Check back tomorrow for some sweet little pick me ups ❤

Sending all my good thoughts to you, and as always – keep real! ❤

 

 

What’s Happening? (Sorry it’s been a while!)

Hey you wonderful people! I hope you’ve had a brilliant January so far, and that you’re being kind to yourselves.

I’ve been away for a while, figuring things out, working on some projects, and getting my head together after quite a trying time over Christmas. It’s been a time of reflection, humble beginnings and organising wonderful things for 2016. There are things in the works, and so soon too!

I’m giving a presentation to the Charlie Waller Memorial Trust (which was rescheduled from December) in the next couple of weeks. Last year I met some amazing people when I went down to the BBC to discuss mental health on Radio 4, and one of those inspiring folk was Dr Shirley Reynolds. She is a brilliant woman, and asked if I’d be interested in working with the trust, as they are hoping to expand here in the North of the UK. Of course I said yes!

Also, my business Keep Real is working on a collaboration with a non-profit called Heads Above The Waves (you can check out the interview I did with Si the Managing Director here), which I’m extremely excited about! I’ll be mentioning them in my presentation, as they are doing some amazing work raising awareness for mental health, and providing information and hope to those who seek it ❤

Thank you for staying with me while I’ve been away, I’ve been seeing that folk are still checking out my blog- and it truly means a lot.

Sending all my love, and as always- keep real! x